Two am and im still awake writing a song

Ok so this may shock some people but im actually going to be scheduling two or three doctors appointments very soon. One of them i will not talk about. the other two have to deal with my wisdom teeth. No lie... I CAN NOT sleep because my teeth are shifting again and causing me A LOT of pain. My gums are swollen and actually started bleeding about an hour ago when the pain woke me up. We want to shoot for May to get them taken out so HOPEFULLY the pain will go away soon so i dont have to live off of liquids..... AGAIN! UGH! The last time my wisdom teeth decided to shift.... I couldnt eat solid foods for three weeks. and then after that for another two I had to eat soft solids like pasta and bananas. im at the point of crying right now. Im tired and I cant get rid of the throbbing! Before dinner i took some excedrin and it helped and i was able to eat speghetti and cookie pie and popcorn (no comments on how HEALTHY that is) but then it wore off and so I took another one a little over an hour ago now and i think it made it worse so now im sucking on ice! and to be quite honest.... its not helping. Does anyone have any advice on how to even dull the pain if not get rid of it completely? Im thinking oragel. Not sure But I might hop on Joshs' bike later today when i finish cleaning and seeing if i can find some at like a convenient store or something. Or i might call Echo and see if she has any from when the girls were teething. OK so moving on from the pain in my mouth that is making me feel like hell has moved in.... I am absolutely loving being married. This past week Brian and I were sick (yes it was monday till basically Wednesday and yes i know that it was just a few days after we got married that we got sick) Monday we both woke up kinda achy and stuffy (me a little worse than Brian). So when we went Grocery shopping we picked up some tylenol. Only they were out of the blue kind which btw is really good and tastes good, so we got the orange one. Well the blue one is for night time and actually knocks you out for up to 12 hours and it knocks out your cold for the most part. When i use that one i only ever have to use it for a max of 2 days. So when I saw that they didnt have the blue one we got the orange thinking it would do the same thing. Well when we got home and took it i realized it was non drowsy. so I had trouble going to sleep until it decided to kick in and relieve a bit of the sickness. Well I had to take it for like four days! Brian being the lucky ducky that he is only had to take it for two! And on top of that it tasted DISGUSTING!!!!!! Like seriously YUCKY!!!!! Well anyways we both used honey to calm our sore throats and (I think it was monday but it could have been tuesday) I said something to Brian about wanting some ginger ale cause i know it really helps sooth a sore throat. So he went to get some while I made mac and cheese with hot dogs (and yes that is the first meal i cooked him but we were sick and newly married and really didnt want to spend a lot of time in the kitchen). But wait ti gets better. Not only did my new husband run to the dollar store to get a bottle of ginger ale, while he was gone something happened (which I will not tell you at this point in time cause i dont want to explain why it happened and considering the fact that most of you live in utah and would smack the life out of me if you knew and we will be visiting Utah very shortly I think my life depends on me not telling you) This something that happened seriously made me incapable of finishing dinner so when my husband got back not only did he hold me and let me ball my eyes out for feeling incompetent and not good enough he finished dinner and then proceded to help me clean the kitchen as well. And I know most of you are thinking "but it was only mac and cheese and hot dogs! Whats so hard about that?" but my point is that I have never had anyone of the male species (other than family) care for me and love me that much and that in my opinion means the world. Brians love is unconditional. And that is whats going to keep me going. AND that is gonna be what keeps me wanting to care for him and do things for him. Its the small gestures and things and the gentlest words said that mean the most. Anyone who knows me knows that I like to keep things as simple as possible. And it saying 'i love you' doesnt get much simplier than this. It meant so much to me that he didnt make fun of me for crying on his shoulder and then taking over and telling me over and over that i was the best wife and how lucky he felt to have me and that he would always be here to take care of me and to help me and that i would never have to worry if i was good enough. Just remembering how it felt to here him say that and how loved i knew i must be makes me want to cry all over again. In about three hours and some minutes i will be making him the best darn chocolate chip pancakes ever to start his day with. I love being his wife and I feel like the lucky one in this marriage cause we all know i dont deserve someone as good as brian but for some reason that i do not and probably will NEVER know.... he choose me. so to kind of wind things down im going to end with saying i got my hair cut. Yes i finally did it. Well actually Echo did. About five inches.... gone. and hopefully when i go out to utah i can talk kim into cutting about two more inches off of it and putting in layers. If not then ill just have to ask amber if she can come to the beach and her and matt and she cut it for me. But when its COMPLETELY done I will post some pictures. Oh and i will have wedding pictures soon... I promise! Sorry about the length. Stupid mouth, Bu at least I got to tell everyone what has been going on this past week.