Brian had his sleep study last night so I got to spend some time with my friend Christine. it was nice. I hadn't had a girls day (or night) in a long time and I was way overdue. We had pizza Ice cream and soda and watched Camp Rock.
I also got to hang out with my friend Kate this past weekend. Her husband works with Brian. It was nice to get to see them again. I have to say, I have come a long way since last year. I still have things I would LOVE to change, but I am happier than I was this time last year.
I am very grateful for my friends and family. I had a bunch of calls and messages when I sprained my ankle last week. Don't worry, I am not being a good girl and am defying the doctor by not wearing my brace because it itches. true to my nature. Also, it was really nice to not have a bunch of nosys wondering what was going on after my post last monday after seeing the doctor. I really appreciate that. I had a few people ask and one person called to make sure I was ok, which made me feel good because I was pretty depressed for a few days. And to those who asked that didn't get an answer, I'm sorry and thank you for understanding that I really didn't want to talk about it nor could I without crying. And those that I did tell, thank you also for being there for me and understanding when I said I couldn't talk about it anymore. It really is hard knowing the possibility that lies ahead. This month can not go by fast enough. I am still just as scared as ever and please forgive me if I don't feel like talking sometimes or do not answer a message right away. Those who do know what is going on can back me up when I say that I honestly have a right to be a little worried. I have to take a minute and thank my husband. I know it's childish and all, but as scared as I have been, there are a few nights where I have just cried and repeated to him how scared I am. I tried for a few days not to show it and aside from this blog entry I probably won' let it be known to anyone outside of my marriage. Even though he has to get up in the morning and I know that he is tired, he still holds me when all of it comes flooding back or lets me get close to him while I repeat how terrified I am of the worst. All in all, I could not ask for better in my life right now even with the bad stuff that is going on. And again, thank you to everyone for being there and being understanding. Thank you so much.
