Gift Of A Friend

Normally I would use song lyrics as a title to my posts. But I couldn't find any that fit with the post I am making so I used the song title Gift Of A Friend. The song is sung by Demi Lovato. I have some amazing news. My wonderful sister Ella is getting married. Plus she has asked me to be Matron of Honor. The reason for my title is because of Ella. I have known her for over eight years. She is an amazing person and a wonderful sister and I am so happy for her and wish her the best of luck. Ella does this thing for Thanksgiving where she posts something she is Grateful for everyday. Well actually a few things lol. I would like to do this too and I encourage all of my friends to do the same as it is a way for us to remember all the good things in our lives.

I am grateful for:
1. My awesome and very loving husband
2. My sister Ella
3. My amazing sisters in law. Echo and Jen
4. My puppy Draco
5. My friend Kate

Well that is all for today. I will try to keep up with this blog from now on.

I'm beautiful in my way cause God makes no mistakes

Hi! I am going to say something that has been bugging me for a while now. I. Don't. Care. I found out recently who my true friends are and I am shocked at how few there are. But in the same sense, I am grateful for that few. I have been going crazy all my life trying to please EVERYONE. The only people I have to please is myself and my Heavenly Father. Well, and my husband. I have come to the conclusion that life is hard and that's just the way it is going to be. I do want to say thank you to the people who have been there for me and I want you to know that I will ALWAYS be there for you. My sisters Echo and Jen have been amazing and extremely understanding even though sometimes, I really don't deserve it. My friends Jaime and Christine have BEEN like sisters to me and I really appreciate it. Thank you so much. You guys have no idea how it felt to know that I just had to text you and my whole day would be better somehow. Some good news. I might get the opportunity to go to Utah this winter. I am a bit excited about that. School has been going well and I am so glad that I FINALLY took some time for me. I am happy with my choice to go back to school and am grateful to those who understood that it was important to me. Brian has been an amazing support system. I am grateful for that. Draco is doing well. He will be a year old next month :) Oh! And we will be moving in December! We will be closer to Clearwater. I will be closer to my friend Christine which will be awesome. Again thank you guys for being such amazing friends!

A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell them for a dollar

I haven't posted in a while. In fact it has been so long that I am sure noone reads our blog anymore. LOL. I had been so busy. I recently quit my job. It has been almost a month. Almost. I am going back to school. I am going full time. I am quiet excited about that. my life is pretty boring. Draco is getting big :) He will be a year old in October. We are considering getting another puppy. Draco loves other dogs.

Brian had his sleep study last night so I got to spend some time with my friend Christine. it was nice. I hadn't had a girls day (or night) in a long time and I was way overdue. We had pizza Ice cream and soda and watched Camp Rock.

I also got to hang out with my friend Kate this past weekend. Her husband works with Brian. It was nice to get to see them again. I have to say, I have come a long way since last year. I still have things I would LOVE to change, but I am happier than I was this time last year.

I am very grateful for my friends and family. I had a bunch of calls and messages when I sprained my ankle last week. Don't worry, I am not being a good girl and am defying the doctor by not wearing my brace because it itches. true to my nature. Also, it was really nice to not have a bunch of nosys wondering what was going on after my post last monday after seeing the doctor. I really appreciate that. I had a few people ask and one person called to make sure I was ok, which made me feel good because I was pretty depressed for a few days. And to those who asked that didn't get an answer, I'm sorry and thank you for understanding that I really didn't want to talk about it nor could I without crying. And those that I did tell, thank you also for being there for me and understanding when I said I couldn't talk about it anymore. It really is hard knowing the possibility that lies ahead. This month can not go by fast enough. I am still just as scared as ever and please forgive me if I don't feel like talking sometimes or do not answer a message right away. Those who do know what is going on can back me up when I say that I honestly have a right to be a little worried. I have to take a minute and thank my husband. I know it's childish and all, but as scared as I have been, there are a few nights where I have just cried and repeated to him how scared I am. I tried for a few days not to show it and aside from this blog entry I probably won' let it be known to anyone outside of my marriage. Even though he has to get up in the morning and I know that he is tired, he still holds me when all of it comes flooding back or lets me get close to him while I repeat how terrified I am of the worst. All in all, I could not ask for better in my life right now even with the bad stuff that is going on. And again, thank you to everyone for being there and being understanding. Thank you so much.

it was not your fault but mine

this month has been so weird. i have been sick on and off and draco was snipped. he did start his training classes and i guess that is helping even if only a bit. everyone is doing ok. brian is fine. draco has his stitches out. josh left on his mission. so i guess everyone is happy at the moment.

here is the part where i tell you how i have been. i am not looking for a pity party. just some advice. i feel so lonely. surrounded by friends and family and i feel lost. i have created this mess mmyself. but i just dont know where to go from here. i have lost faith in a sense. i have no self confidence or self esteem. and like i said... this is my fault for lwtting people walk all over me and tear me down all my life. maybe if i had a little courage to stand up for myself, not just now but a long time ago, maybe i wouldnt feel like this? eh i dont know. has anyone else felt like this? i honestly think i just need a good vacation. to just get away from it all for a while. but i dont know. and like i said, i posted this for advice, so all advice is welcome.

so back to everyone else. josh is finally in th mtc. i havent heard from him yet but i am sure he is doing well. he will be serving the lucky people in the california venture mission are.

brian finally goy his sports car a while ago. he is loving it. eventually we will trade in his old scion so i can get a car that i want.

draco. my beautiful furry child. he stinks. literally. he got snipped last week. and we were told we couldnt bathe him for fourteen days. so we cant bathe him until monday. but has healed really well. and we have started finding his baby teeth. he has been losing them for a whil. we figured he was just swallowing them. but we found one last night. rather brian found one last night.

so all in all... everyone is doing well

Tremble Little Lion Man

I have been bad about blogging. It has been awhile and there is not much to say. There is a reason for my title I promise :) We did get a new member of the family :) His name is Draco and he loves his Aunt Jaime more than anything. Also, Something good is happening for our small little family. I am not able to say right now. But I promise you it is good :) And no I am not pregnant. Our one year anniversary is coming up soon! I am so excited! It is said that the first year of marriage is the hardest. We will see. We have been making friends which is always a good thing. We started hanging out with Eric and Kate Hanna. They are a load of fun and have been married almost a year as well :) We also started hanging out with Jaime. Draco LOVES Jaime and she loves him. She has become our regular dog-sitter when we can't be home on Saturdays and we really appreciate her. All in all, our lives ARE getting better. We are eating healthier and are feeling more alive and, well, like ourselves :)

I got no time That I got to get to Where I don't need to be

I am in a Jack Johnson mood today :) He has to be one of my favorite singer/songwriters! You can not go wrong with Jack Johnson! By the way... I have some mew pictures for you. :DWe got to see some amazing people over Christmas. We saw my sister Ella, my parents, Brians parents, Chris and Echo and their girls, PLUS The Scaggs, the Wachs, and the McElroys who belong to the handsome Owen in the above photo :)

I got Brian a duo decohedron. Don't ask. It is some type of Rubix cube lol.

Brian bought me the Grims Complete Fairy Tales! :) I was so excited :) Mom Johnston got us a bread maker which I am LOVING! :) I had such a great first married Christmas with my husband. I am looking forward to many more :)